Consistency

I've walked every day now for two weeks and finally made it 2 laps around the neighborhood this evening.  It's a love/hate thing.  I hate it when I first start out and love the way I feel when I'm done.  I'll admit that it feels good to get off my fat a$$ and MOVE.  The food however hasn't been spectacular.  I started out the week w/ the calorie counting but after 2 days I just quit.  I swear, it may not be this way for everyone, but for me, restricting very quickly leads to binge feelings and I've been rid of those for too long to re-visit them now.  I calorie counted and walked all the way down from 340 lbs. to 240 lbs. and I am just flat burned out on it.  I can't seem to muster whatever it takes to use that tool to lose the rest of this weight.  I know the math works.  I know if I do it the weight will come off.  But....I just can't/won't/refuse/abhor/loathe....whatever you want to call it.  I do not have another plan in place.  I'm not one of the believers in "intuitive eating".  I intuitively ate my way up to morbid obesity.  My intuition cannot be trusted.

My friend Pam told me about the Trim Healthy Mama craze...at least I think that's what it's called.  I'm interested in reading the book but don't want to spend $30+ on it right now.  From what I heard it involves no white foods/carbs...which is the way I'm supposed to be eating anyway with my diabetes.  The 650 page book is supposed to be stocked full of recipes, and that's what has piqued my interest.  I love it when I don't have to think up meals...where I can just make what's written on the page, know that it's healthy and all the right food portions & that's it.  We'll see.  I'm waiting to hear how Pam likes the book.  I've read 2 other book reviews and those bloggers both seem pleased having used their methods to get to their goal weights and supposedly w/o counting a single calorie.

I know....there's always something new out there.  But I do need to find something that's diabetic-friendly as a way of life.  The diabetes are genetic for me and will never go away, but can definitely be controlled with the right eating lifestyle.

I'll report back on Sat if I manage to drop another pound this week.  We shall see.  In the meantime, I'll be walking. :)