Thursday, March 15, 2012
This week's eating has been pathetic. No bingeing...I stopped that a couple of years ago, thank God. But I have really been blowing it in the later hours at night. I shopped well for groceries last weekend, and have eaten everything on track with breakfast, lunch, snacks and dinner, finishing each day around the 1500 mark. Then around 10p at night everything comes undone. I've been dwelling on it and trying to find out what my major malfunction is. I'm just not sure. I've been unusually hungry at night this week, and my resolve has just crumbled. It's irritating, and the feeling of failing each night for the last 4 nights is not a happy one. I've got to find that resolve again and get this train back on track. I'm sitting at 239 and have been all week. I know work has been crazy busy and there's extra tension and stress at home with Dwayne's job being up in the air...but I'm not sure that's what my problem is with the eating. Whatever it is, there's nothing major enough wrong right now....there's just no excuse. Maybe it's just laziness and I just need to get my ass back in gear....or put it to bed at 10pm. Something must change. I have a goal to reach, and after losing 100 lbs, 40 more should just be a drop in the bucket. I need to get out of my own way and just get it done.